I have only just discovered this site over the weekend and have already logged on on numerous occasions. My mum has recently been diagnosed aged 61 and this has been the toughest few months of my and my family's life. I can not believe the amount of tears that have been shed and the amount of time spent worrying about what the future holds. All I keep thinking is that I wish I could rewind time to when we were happy, and even though I know people will say we will still have happy times we will never have that "carefree" feeling that you do not appreciate until it is gone. I don't know who to talk to or where to go. I am trying to be strong for my dad because he has enough to deal with looking after mum without me breaking down too. Ive spoken to friends who have been fantastic but I feel there are only so many times you can bring up the topic without thoroughly depressing everyone around you so over the past few weeks I havent really spoken to anyone and just tried to carry on as normal. Then I discovered TP. Reading all your comments and entries has really helped me and it makes such a difference to "talk" to people who sadly know all to well what it is really like to have a loved one snatched away piece by piece infront of your eyes. So I just wanted to say THANK YOU. Your comments have made a huge difference to me and whilst nothing is ever going to be the same again at least i have now found somewhere to ease the burden a little. You are all special people x x x x x