Well mum has had her sw visit and her lovely mcmillan nurse there too (mum hasn't got cancer put she does have pallative care) to discuss Ch options and maybe other options if possible. From the second I walked into her house it's like she knew what was happening (even though she didn't know anyone was coming). I usually get a smile an hello followed by a comment of not seeing me for ages (I'm here every day). This morning I just got looked at and hardly spoken to. Then when everyone arrived I had pre-warned them that the words 'care home' we're not to be mentioned, so nothing was referred to in that respect but mum kept crying and when my sis took her into her bedroom to console her she just kept sobbing saying 'don't take away'. I feel like my heart is breaking. She is getting worse, and needs more care than we can give her, I know there are 3 of us but looking after mum and sleeping and working full time is taking its toll on everyone, and I'm starting to see little cracks in our 3 relationships with eachother, it's starting 'well I've done all this ... blah blah blah' We will try some last ditch attempts to keep mum at home but what will we do when it has to happen, a Ch is the best option for her safety, but we will break her heart I know that for certain now. Unless she has another TIA and it takes another chunk shes going yo know exactly whats happening and its against everything she's ever wanted. How do I live with that.