My Mum has alzs and my Dad is her carer. I help out when I can and when I am needed. Mum is 77years old and takes Aricept. My Dad attends the local Alzs Group each month and receives good support and encouragement there. I have recently joined TP because I am baffled with how I feel. Every Sunday I visit my Parents in a social setting rather than a caring one. Every Sunday I dread going because I really can't handle it and I find it really hard to see the way the illness is progressing in Mum. As soon as I arrive I want to leave. My Dad asks me each time I see them how Mum looks and if I think she is improving. I cannot lie to him, so I either talk about her medication or say that Mum looks tired, which she always does these days. It's Saturday morning and already I'm dreading seeing them tomorrow, just thinking about it has me in tears. It's not that I don't want to see my parents. I guess it's because I miss my Mum so much, in so many ways. Anyone got a magic wand I can wave? Failing that, does anyone identify with how I feel.