Today I visited my OH. He has fronto temporal dementia and has been in a home now for 1 year and 3 weeks. He has NEVER settled and even after a drug change he harangued me so much today about getting home, and threatened suicide. His last words to me today we're "It's been nice knowing you" - after 44 years of marriage, 36 of which were very happy before this disease began to take hold. I feel so sad but can't even cry.