Thanks for your words @northumbrian_k .You have great generosity of spirit @margherita and you are right that it does not take much effort to bring just a few moments of happiness into someone's life. Who you were and what you meant to each other is in the past. Compassion for his situation does not alter what went before but you are beyond that now. Your loneliness is being replaced by a new strength as you get used to living alone. I hope that your freedom gives opportunities for you to re-engage with others if and when you wish to do so. Wishing you all the best.
Everything is in the past , as you say, and now I want to look ahead and do what I like best, helping stray dogs and travelling.
Wishing you all the best, too