I'm feeling very flat today. There has been so much deterioration in John over the last year.
Last May John and I were on that fateful cruise where he contracted the Norwark virus, and so much has changed since then.
His language has deteriorated to the extent that he can no longer watch TV. He is so bored. All he wants to do after tea is go to bed. If I let him, he sleeps for a few hours, then is awake again by the time I go up. If I don't let him, he just sits and sighs until I give in.
His wonderful personality is also beginning to change, as he now demands his own way, something he would never have done before.
He is partially incontinent, which makes it difficult to go anywhere, as he doesn't like to wear pants during the day. Holidays are now out of the question.
He used to spend hours painting, but can't do that any more. He can't do anything round the house. I know that there is still intelligence there, the way he coped with the eye test shows that, and I'm not surprised he's bored.
I know my problems are small compared with many of you. I didn't get any sleep last night, his bruised ribs are making him even more restless than usual.
I'm sorry. I'm just feeling sorry for myself today, and I needed a moan. I won't do it again (for a while!)
Last May John and I were on that fateful cruise where he contracted the Norwark virus, and so much has changed since then.
His language has deteriorated to the extent that he can no longer watch TV. He is so bored. All he wants to do after tea is go to bed. If I let him, he sleeps for a few hours, then is awake again by the time I go up. If I don't let him, he just sits and sighs until I give in.
His wonderful personality is also beginning to change, as he now demands his own way, something he would never have done before.
He is partially incontinent, which makes it difficult to go anywhere, as he doesn't like to wear pants during the day. Holidays are now out of the question.
He used to spend hours painting, but can't do that any more. He can't do anything round the house. I know that there is still intelligence there, the way he coped with the eye test shows that, and I'm not surprised he's bored.
I know my problems are small compared with many of you. I didn't get any sleep last night, his bruised ribs are making him even more restless than usual.
I'm sorry. I'm just feeling sorry for myself today, and I needed a moan. I won't do it again (for a while!)