My dad deteriorated quickly after the first lockdown and had to go into a care home after he started getting aggressive with my mum. I've not been able to visit as I live further away and due to level 4 restrictions and working in a job with risks I was scared to go to the care home....then the 2nd lockdown happened. I tried video phoning but he didn't understand and walked away. I'm so upset as I haven't seen him in months now and feel so upset all the time, I'm struggling to get my head around it all because it feels like he has just disappeared from my life. I know things will help slightly after vaccinations, hopefully as I'll can see him but he will still be away from me, in a home. I guess I'm just looking for any advice on how to deal with it all as I'm struggling. My family are great but not close by and partner not great at talking about stuff.