Sorry for such a long and desperate rant but need to get everything off my chest and desperate for advice/reassurance.
Only child mum 67 lives alone.
My mums always been anxious and a worrier but about 2 years ago she had health scare irregular heartbeat and she also lost her two pets suddenly.
She was devastated almost instantly had memory problems confusion with the time.
She even thought my teenage son had put the number 12 in her clocks as they weren't there before.
Long story short she had memory tests done failed them had ct scan didn't show anything.
Consultant prescribed sertroline said mum was anxious depressed and it was creating a pseudo dementia. Symptoms of dementia but with out the dementia.
Almost straight away mum improved she carried on with the tablets for a year and was fine no real issues no memory concerns.
She came off tablets in March do to dr advice and wa fine at first.
Bout July time mum started becoming withdrawn and struggled with the day to day tasks. Couldn't work her tv. Couldn't understand why cordless telephone has to be connected to electro to charge up.
Was constantly phoning me just random things what time was it etc.
Took her back to Drs they put her back on to sertroline. This time no improvement in fact she seemed to get worse.
My cousin who's a nurse stayed with her for a week in the summer and was very concerned.
Mum was hardly eating she's lost so much weight. She was always on edge worrying and when she got worked up would either rock backwards and forwards or tap her leg. She was just really withdrawn and fidgety.
She got confused with her tablets took two in one day. She'd been in her room and thought it was the next day so took the next days tablets.
Took her back to gp they referred her to psychiatric nurse.
She came sorted blister packs for mum to help her take her tablets. Didn't help she still gets confused took a whole weeks worth in 3 days once.
I now have to phone her every day to feel her to take her tablets.
She's decided she takes them in a morning she starts phoning from 6 every day to see if it's time to take her tablet.
Sometimes she knows what day it is sometimes she doesn't.
The other day I went round when she had to have her tablet she just looked blank and said what do I have to do do I swallow the tablet she had no understanding of it.
She's not coping with looking after the house it's totally out of control. I went and de cluttered but she still can't maintain it.
Had to tell her the other day to get changed her clothes were filthy. She'd had the same jumper on on the Saturday it was now Wednesday.
Have to constantly check her food came back of holiday beginning of September she was still using milk and bread that went out of date 26th September. Had no idea it was out of date.
We have no normal conversations it's all about her illness or her worrying about things.
She struggles to use day to day things. Ovens broke it's not.
Washer doesn't work it does
Tv sometimes doesn't work
Microwave sometimes doesn't work
She has no understanding that it's her that isn't able to work the things she thinks they are broke.
Only equipment she can use is telephone she's constantly phoning me and her older sister.
She got confused the other week she was taking about her niece she hasn't got a niece it was her sister.
She lost her bank card couldn't remember what happened to it. Luckily I managed to cancel it.
She had memory test only scored 50 out of 100.
She thought we were in the year 2027.
She switched freezer off and on repeatedly even though it has food in didn't realise she needed it plugged in.
Every day to day task seems challenging at times for her.
However sometimes she's fine remembers for example Wednesday is shopping day Thursday she goes to her friends etc.
Today she totally stumped me couldn't remember she had a green bin that rubbish had to go in. Told me she's been cleaning up all day. She hasn't the house was a stare. Totally spaced out.
But then said oh I'm having my hair done today. To be honest I'd wrote it on her calendar ages ago and forgot I'd done it so hadn't reminded her but she's worked it out for herself.
She's had brain scan 15th September we get results on Monday 2nd October.
Psychiatric nurse says she expects it to confirm either althziemers or vascular dementia.
I'm totally heartbroken.
I feel like I'm grieving my mum we used to be so close now we are so distant shes unrecognisable.
Yet I'm having to deal with this stranger living in my mums house. She doesn't even look like my mum she's lost so much weight.
She's so lonely and scared.
I do what I can I phone her ever day and see her twice a week.
I can't do more.
I run my own business and work long hours 6 days a week.
Have my own house problems two teenagers etc. Have no time for myself already.
So even though I know I should do more I can't and to be honest I don't want to.
I find it too hard and too heartbreaking I have dread when I know i have to see this stranger I know that sounds harsh.
On top of this in search of answers doing far too much google time.
Have convinced myself that she'll have one of the hereditary dementias like frontemporal.
Don't know why she's not showing any of the real symptoms listed.
My Aunty has given me a full account of family history there is no dementia in our large family.
So I know that realistically If it is even something like frontemporal dementia the chances of it being inherited are supposed to be low but I'm still terrified.
Especially as I'm 46 I feel like I'm a sitting duck.
My mum the worry work worries and all other day to day worries are putting so much pressure on me.
I feel so sad so alone like there's no end to it all.
Every morning I have sense of dread and despair.
My daughter 18 bless her has said she's worried about me as I always seem sad and she feels like she'll loose her mum as well as her gran.
So I know I need to sort myself out but I'm so scared and afraid of what's going to happen.
Only child mum 67 lives alone.
My mums always been anxious and a worrier but about 2 years ago she had health scare irregular heartbeat and she also lost her two pets suddenly.
She was devastated almost instantly had memory problems confusion with the time.
She even thought my teenage son had put the number 12 in her clocks as they weren't there before.
Long story short she had memory tests done failed them had ct scan didn't show anything.
Consultant prescribed sertroline said mum was anxious depressed and it was creating a pseudo dementia. Symptoms of dementia but with out the dementia.
Almost straight away mum improved she carried on with the tablets for a year and was fine no real issues no memory concerns.
She came off tablets in March do to dr advice and wa fine at first.
Bout July time mum started becoming withdrawn and struggled with the day to day tasks. Couldn't work her tv. Couldn't understand why cordless telephone has to be connected to electro to charge up.
Was constantly phoning me just random things what time was it etc.
Took her back to Drs they put her back on to sertroline. This time no improvement in fact she seemed to get worse.
My cousin who's a nurse stayed with her for a week in the summer and was very concerned.
Mum was hardly eating she's lost so much weight. She was always on edge worrying and when she got worked up would either rock backwards and forwards or tap her leg. She was just really withdrawn and fidgety.
She got confused with her tablets took two in one day. She'd been in her room and thought it was the next day so took the next days tablets.
Took her back to gp they referred her to psychiatric nurse.
She came sorted blister packs for mum to help her take her tablets. Didn't help she still gets confused took a whole weeks worth in 3 days once.
I now have to phone her every day to feel her to take her tablets.
She's decided she takes them in a morning she starts phoning from 6 every day to see if it's time to take her tablet.
Sometimes she knows what day it is sometimes she doesn't.
The other day I went round when she had to have her tablet she just looked blank and said what do I have to do do I swallow the tablet she had no understanding of it.
She's not coping with looking after the house it's totally out of control. I went and de cluttered but she still can't maintain it.
Had to tell her the other day to get changed her clothes were filthy. She'd had the same jumper on on the Saturday it was now Wednesday.
Have to constantly check her food came back of holiday beginning of September she was still using milk and bread that went out of date 26th September. Had no idea it was out of date.
We have no normal conversations it's all about her illness or her worrying about things.
She struggles to use day to day things. Ovens broke it's not.
Washer doesn't work it does
Tv sometimes doesn't work
Microwave sometimes doesn't work
She has no understanding that it's her that isn't able to work the things she thinks they are broke.
Only equipment she can use is telephone she's constantly phoning me and her older sister.
She got confused the other week she was taking about her niece she hasn't got a niece it was her sister.
She lost her bank card couldn't remember what happened to it. Luckily I managed to cancel it.
She had memory test only scored 50 out of 100.
She thought we were in the year 2027.
She switched freezer off and on repeatedly even though it has food in didn't realise she needed it plugged in.
Every day to day task seems challenging at times for her.
However sometimes she's fine remembers for example Wednesday is shopping day Thursday she goes to her friends etc.
Today she totally stumped me couldn't remember she had a green bin that rubbish had to go in. Told me she's been cleaning up all day. She hasn't the house was a stare. Totally spaced out.
But then said oh I'm having my hair done today. To be honest I'd wrote it on her calendar ages ago and forgot I'd done it so hadn't reminded her but she's worked it out for herself.
She's had brain scan 15th September we get results on Monday 2nd October.
Psychiatric nurse says she expects it to confirm either althziemers or vascular dementia.
I'm totally heartbroken.
I feel like I'm grieving my mum we used to be so close now we are so distant shes unrecognisable.
Yet I'm having to deal with this stranger living in my mums house. She doesn't even look like my mum she's lost so much weight.
She's so lonely and scared.
I do what I can I phone her ever day and see her twice a week.
I can't do more.
I run my own business and work long hours 6 days a week.
Have my own house problems two teenagers etc. Have no time for myself already.
So even though I know I should do more I can't and to be honest I don't want to.
I find it too hard and too heartbreaking I have dread when I know i have to see this stranger I know that sounds harsh.
On top of this in search of answers doing far too much google time.
Have convinced myself that she'll have one of the hereditary dementias like frontemporal.
Don't know why she's not showing any of the real symptoms listed.
My Aunty has given me a full account of family history there is no dementia in our large family.
So I know that realistically If it is even something like frontemporal dementia the chances of it being inherited are supposed to be low but I'm still terrified.
Especially as I'm 46 I feel like I'm a sitting duck.
My mum the worry work worries and all other day to day worries are putting so much pressure on me.
I feel so sad so alone like there's no end to it all.
Every morning I have sense of dread and despair.
My daughter 18 bless her has said she's worried about me as I always seem sad and she feels like she'll loose her mum as well as her gran.
So I know I need to sort myself out but I'm so scared and afraid of what's going to happen.
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