Ruth has been ill with Alzhimers for over 12 years having started symptoms when she was 44. Now 57 she will leave us shortly and her suffering will end. I have cared for her and loved her more and more as her symtoms grew worse. Now not eating or drinking I have refused to have her peg fed. It is now a matter of time. I do not know what I will do. My life revolves around her. I know I lost the Ruth we all loved so much a long time ago I guess seeing the end of her suffering will help me cope.