Hi Everyone
Ive only posted a couple of times but i'm a regular lurker.
Mom passed away on the 29th January, and although it was expected and ive watched her slip away from me over the last few months. Nothing could have prepared me for the overwelhming hurt i felt.
I feel worse now than at the time if that is possible, I jumped straight into organising everything registering the death, funeral arrangements, flowers, food etc for the wake. Helping my brother who lived with mom, sorting the bills changing names etc being strong for everyone. Everyone kept saying how proud they were and i held myself up well on the day etc ...
And now its all over and life slips back into its normal step I feel completely heart broken, lost, angry, scared to cry for the fear of not stopping. I thought i was doing ok and the old saying your moms your best friend is so true she was my best friend and if i could just hold her one last time touch her face and tell her i love her.
And the thought of the coming months fills me with dread knowing ive got to open my eyes each morning and the feeling of loss will wash over me.
Sorry to go on I could keep writing but think i'll leave it here for now.
God Bless
Louise
Ive only posted a couple of times but i'm a regular lurker.
Mom passed away on the 29th January, and although it was expected and ive watched her slip away from me over the last few months. Nothing could have prepared me for the overwelhming hurt i felt.
I feel worse now than at the time if that is possible, I jumped straight into organising everything registering the death, funeral arrangements, flowers, food etc for the wake. Helping my brother who lived with mom, sorting the bills changing names etc being strong for everyone. Everyone kept saying how proud they were and i held myself up well on the day etc ...
And now its all over and life slips back into its normal step I feel completely heart broken, lost, angry, scared to cry for the fear of not stopping. I thought i was doing ok and the old saying your moms your best friend is so true she was my best friend and if i could just hold her one last time touch her face and tell her i love her.
And the thought of the coming months fills me with dread knowing ive got to open my eyes each morning and the feeling of loss will wash over me.
Sorry to go on I could keep writing but think i'll leave it here for now.
God Bless
Louise