I woke up this morning and sat on the edge of my bed with hands in head for such a long time. Felt so down. Sat at breakfast table and had orange for brekkie but didnt really notice what was going on around me. Elane put her arms around me and gave me a huge cuddle but to no avail. Some days are so hard even though i have so many things to be grateful for. I wondered and wanted all this to go away and all i want is Elaine to have her life back and for me to get back to some kind of normailty , what ever that is. I must be one of the luckies men alive regarding my wonderful family so why do i get so down and full of awful thoughts? I feel as if i have the world on my shouldres some times and i have never been a worrier. The mood is lifting slightly now as i look forward a liitle to going for a short wallk, i just want to be normal again!! is that such a bad thing??Best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxxxxx