Don't worry I will make plans @Bikerbeth.I know we will still be in ‘strange’ time still but could you plan to do something ‘nice’ on the day.
need to do something to celebrate his life and what he meant to you
Thankyou @Jessbow.The fact that you continued the living in the family home without him, both before and fter his death for some considerable time hasnt helped your 'moving on/mourning process.
You are in your new place now, almost free of everything thing that was,
Cheers dad, I''m strong and I AM surviving