Well its been six weeks since seeing dad, can't believe it really. I've been off work ill for this long, and haven't had the strength, physically or mentally to go to see him. I have never not seen him for longer than two weeks in my entire life, so if has been difficult for me. The first three weeks i couldn't walk, and the last three weeks have been spent getting stronger gradually every day. But knowing that he doesn't know who i am now, at least helped me to know he wouldn't be wondering where i was. I'm just wondering what I'm going to find different after so long a time with dad. Will he recognize a face he hasn't seen for so long, even if he thinks i am a carer in the home. If he cries when he sees me, then I'll know in his mind he can see i am connected to him more than just a carer, and even though i know he hasn't been wondering where i have been, at lest i know i haven't been entirely lost to him, if you understand me.