I woke this morning with an overwhelming desire to look after mum full time. You see I am looking for work at the moment and I just cannot concentrate on it. I feel so scared inside with this overwhelming desire just to go look after her. My mind is just not on the daily mental grind of trying to be positive looking for work while worried about mum, I know I am going into a depression, what employer needs that. This is a occurrence of the black dog.