The coughing, spluttering and being sick that I was worried about with my laddo lying flat has a diagnosis. The worst possible I am afraid. I am in a state of complete shock. I have been told to prepare for the worst in the next few weeks. Meanwhile all medication has been withdrawn so it is not such a trial to get down him. Just fluids now and he will stay at home - at laddo's insistence which has been respected by the medics after the traumas he went through last year in the various hospitals. Wall to wall carers, Macmillan nurses, night sitters etc so I will be well supported. But ...... I cannot begin to say how I am feeling except that I am just broken to pieces.
Love from sammyb
Love from sammyb