I was on a "wary" high for a couple of days. After my dad seemed to go from his lowest point mentally ever, to more lucid than I had seen him in months! In hospital after a fall mending from that. Asking about his grandchildren and generally being more aware and happy.
Visited him yesterday, to be greeted with one of the wonderful nurses telling me she was concerned, he was so confused, talking gibberish and not making sense. Tired and looking unwell.
My mum instantly crashed to the lowest of low, in moods. Understandable as she is terrified he will be like this at home, and she won't cope, with the best will in the world I can't be there 24/7.
I find myself willing dad on, prompting him to try and walk for a bit, or have a drink, talk about the football or Grand Prix that he loves. He came round a little whilst we were there, but really wasn't good. But something I am finding harder as I become more tired is trying to keep my mum positive as well.
I am scared that unless she can detach herself from what she has known all her life and live day to day, stop correcting him, stop getting agitated because of her (understandable) mood, dad will never relax enough which will make his mental state worse and my mum will end up with depression (if she hasn't already).
Things have only been this bad for just over a week, I am exhausted and my family are watching me get more tired and detached from them because of the continual worry for both parents and their situation!
I am scared every time I round the corner of the ward he is supposed to be leaving on Monday (although that's not set in stone and I fear if it changes will hurt him mentally more) of what state I will find and then how to help them both.
It seems this is it! A continual state of high anxiety for all concerned. With no answer from anyone anywhere! Because no one knows!
Visited him yesterday, to be greeted with one of the wonderful nurses telling me she was concerned, he was so confused, talking gibberish and not making sense. Tired and looking unwell.
My mum instantly crashed to the lowest of low, in moods. Understandable as she is terrified he will be like this at home, and she won't cope, with the best will in the world I can't be there 24/7.
I find myself willing dad on, prompting him to try and walk for a bit, or have a drink, talk about the football or Grand Prix that he loves. He came round a little whilst we were there, but really wasn't good. But something I am finding harder as I become more tired is trying to keep my mum positive as well.
I am scared that unless she can detach herself from what she has known all her life and live day to day, stop correcting him, stop getting agitated because of her (understandable) mood, dad will never relax enough which will make his mental state worse and my mum will end up with depression (if she hasn't already).
Things have only been this bad for just over a week, I am exhausted and my family are watching me get more tired and detached from them because of the continual worry for both parents and their situation!
I am scared every time I round the corner of the ward he is supposed to be leaving on Monday (although that's not set in stone and I fear if it changes will hurt him mentally more) of what state I will find and then how to help them both.
It seems this is it! A continual state of high anxiety for all concerned. With no answer from anyone anywhere! Because no one knows!