My husband still goes into “work” every day, he can’t let go. I say “work” because it’s his business and he doesn’t need to be there. I understand this need for normality but as I am the only person aware of his diagnosis it scares me every time he goes out alone. He is driving and I know how bad he is. He’s ok with the same routes but it’s still so worrying. When he is with me he looks to me all the time for guidance and I basically cover for him constantly. I can’t imagine what he is like talking about business stuff in work, because I am basically his brain! I just try to switch off but it’s hard. He won’t listen to me and makes bad decisions. I try to tell myself I should enjoy my time as I know it’s inevitable it won’t last but I still worry constantly. I’ve heard him on the phone and he talks nonsense but you wouldn’t know anything was wrong if you met him for the first time. I hate the thought of him looking stupid to people in his business, I just feel naturally protective. I’m battling in my head all the time. Some days I can’t wait for him to go but then I worry I feel guilty then in case something happens. Should I just enjoy my time while I can? His medication will be getting increased next week so I will probably be worrying more There is normally a counselling service provided after diagnosis in our Memory Clinic but it didn’t happen because of the lockdown. I think he could have done with it too, so hard to hear that word Dementia even though we already knew.