That describes exactly how I'm feeling at the moment. As though I've just opened my eyes to find myself at the top of the biggest, scariest big dipper in the world. My Mum's Alzheimer's is only a small problem at the tip of her medical iceberg and I always thought it would be her kidneys that would get her in the end. AD was not a road I wanted her travelling too much and it seems to be an easier way out. I did think we might have another good year though, especially as we moved her into an excellent care home only five weeks ago. Sadly, I don't think it was meant to be. She has been refusing all food for over a week and is hardly drinking either. After two visits spent battling with her to take something, I have now informed the staff that I am not prepared to spoil what time we have left. There is one good thing about roller coasters though. The views can be quite breathtaking.