Still undecided about the catheter - in fact unable to make a decision about anything. I am exhausted mentally and physically. OH seems to have taken a turn for the worse, rambling on with the same questions endlessly. I wrote on his board "We are NOT going out tonight" but that only led to endless "Why has IT been cancelled" and "Are They coming here instead". He went off to bed fully clad (in case THEY turned up) around 7.15 but was back up and down every 10mins or so, saying he heard a car stop or the door bell ring. This went on all night and has become commonplace now. This morning he was up early, told me he had slept well!!! and agreed on a short outing to nearby town where there is a Council Bi-election. Today there will be a visit from the 1st Minister to support our candidate (who is a long time friend) and, having been unable to do any leafletting or canvassing, I thought we could at least swell the crowd today. OH said OK as long as he could just wait in the car, but later, when I had got ready to go, announced that he had a headache and needed to go back to bed, where he remains. You would think that I would get used to this palaver, but it seems so little to ask, to get out of prison for half an hour, to see my friends and show support. I have only left the house twice this week - to take him to the GP on Monday and to do the food shopping while he was at day care on Wednesday. Perhaps I am stir crazy