I'm at the 'agonising' stage too now. When we were re-assessed by SW four months ago, she thought I should consider respite, but I wasn't ready, and I didn't think John was ready. This morning I took him for his annual BP/cholesterol etc. tests with the practice nurse. John is fine, she said I was doing a good job, but that I looked exhausted. She was so concerned, I just wanted to cry. She too said I needed respite. Anyway, she's arranged for our GP to phone me on Thursday to discuss it. I just don't know what to do. I really do feel exhausted, and my neck has seized up again. I get a trapped nerve, which gives me agonising neuralgia. And I can't take strong analgesics because they aggravate my diverticulitis. The last time I tried I was in hospital for a week. The only thing I can do is have osteopathy. Sorry for the moan, but I don't know what to do. Do I agree to respite, and risk more confusion for John (he's an a steep decline at the moment), or do I press on and hope I can keep going? Advice, please.