Im so sorry for being/sounding selfish and silly but im missing my mom, the person she used to be so much the last couple of days, i keep crying and i feel like im falling apart. I know im very lucky compared to some people, i do still have my mom here but its just so hard. My mom is in a care home, doesnt know who i am, most days shes not too good, crys a lot, gets aggitated quickly and sometimes a little bit aggressive. Saw her tuesday and she was having a really good day, very smiley and happy, it was so good to see but its just made me miss her even more. I really wish i could call her up and have a chat to her but my mom cant communicate much anymore. There is a lady in her care home who has just died from alzheimers, younger than my mom, it brings it home more what we're still more than likely going to go through. Im sorry for feeling sorry for myself.