1. jackie1

    jackie1 Registered User

    Jun 6, 2007
    238
    Cheshire
    After going for our eldest son (11) 2 more times John went into respite for 10 days on Friday. They are going to look at his medication to see if anything can be done.

    I am feeling a mixture of guilt and relief. As dreadful as it sounds to say this, we had a lovely weekend. To see our child looking happy for the first time in so long brought tears to my eyes.

    I know I have done the right thing as the childrens safety must come first I just don't know where we go from here.

    Jackie
     
  2. Vonny

    Vonny Registered User

    Feb 3, 2009
    4,577
    Telford
    Hi Jackie,

    You probably won't want to do this, but if you involve children's SS you are far more likely to get more help with John. They are usually quicker to deal with a situation where a child is "at risk" than an adult. Only you can tell if this is what you need to do but as you say, your children's well being is paramount. They are just starting their lives and are impressionable enough in a stable environment let alone having to walk on eggshells the whole time.

    It doesn't sound in the least dreadful that you had a lovely weekend. I'm so pleased for you and hope that you enjoy the rest of the respite.

    Take care

    Vonny xx
     
  3. trackburn

    trackburn Registered User

    Mar 17, 2009
    3
    Swindon
    How cruel is this disease!!

    Hi I am a new member in desperate need of some support from people who understand what I am going through! My Dad who is 84 has been suffering from Dementia for 4 years although things rapidly declined from last year. My dad become very aggressive and hard to manage at home (my parents live with me) and on Christmas Eve the crisis team put him in the Victoria Centre (mental hospital) and he is still there! Me and my mum really struggled with the guilt of him being in there particularly because when he was admitted he reacted badly and we wasn't allowed to visit for a week. He did appear to settle down in the home and we had some great visits where he was happy and laughing but things have become very bad.

    My dad hates intervention and given that he is now incontenant the staff have to keep changing him and he is awful to them. He punches and screams and tries to bash the door down. It is heartbreaking to watch and appears to be getting worse.

    Now the Social worker has told me my dad will shortly be put in a home and because of his level of aggression there is only a choice of two. I have been to see them and whilst they are ok I am concerned about how they will deal with my dads aggression and whether they will ill treat him because of it! My dad is a lovely man and is not at all aggressive by nature and it breaks my heart to see him this way. The thought of anyone being less than kind to him fills me with dispair.

    My mum is at a nervous breakdown stage, seeing her husband of 52 years in this state is just so hard for her to take. I am also an emotional wreck as I am so close to my Dad.

    I would really appreciate your views and experiences or any words of advice.

    Many thanks
    Tracy
     
  4. Sam Iam

    Sam Iam Registered User

    Sep 29, 2008
    3,151
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    Hi Tracy,

    The homes have training in violence & aggression and will be used to coping with people with dementia, so try not to worry and if there is anything that annoys you when your Dad has moved to the home you have picked, then you can demand that he be moved (there are posts on here where people have been therough this with their loved ones).
    Your Mum will be very upset and feeling guilty this is normal Tracy and is par for the course and she will hopefully settle when she see's your Dad settle.

    This disease is horrible but it is good to share your thoughts, worries and moans (we all do it Tracy :D) with your fellow TP er's
    best wishes xxx
     
  5. Sam Iam

    Sam Iam Registered User

    Sep 29, 2008
    3,151
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    Jackie,
    John having his medication changed might help with thew aggression (finger's crossed, for as you know it is trial & error)

    If all else fails Jackie it might be time to go for a suitable home for John as you are in such a horrible place at the moment and I really feel for you, it must be agony Jackie wanting to care for John and worrying about your children's safty.

    Sorry if this is not what you want to hear as I do not want to offend you Jackie but John would be well cared for and you and your family could have quality time with their Dad, their memories might not be what other children experiance but there is more of a chance of good memories for you and them.

    God bless you sweetheart xx
     
  6. living in hope

    living in hope Registered User

    Dec 14, 2008
    552
    yorkshire
    Hi Jackie
    Sorry to hear about problems with John, your childrens safety must come first and if John were able to he would say the same, this terrible disease robs our loved ones of the ability to take responsibility for their actions so its up to us to do the best for all concerned. Hope things work out for you (whatever form that takes) and never feel guilty, we have to do what we have to do!
    Love
    Lorraine
     
  7. jackie1

    jackie1 Registered User

    Jun 6, 2007
    238
    Cheshire
    Thank you for all your kind comments.

    Sadly things seem to have taken a further turn for the worse today. Despite John starting on new medication on Monday, he has attacked one of the male members of staff. Other staff had to intervene to prevent serious damage.

    I now feel that unless there is significant improvement that I can't have him come home on Monday.

    I am so sad.

    Jackie
     
  8. Mameeskye

    Mameeskye Registered User

    Aug 9, 2007
    1,669
    NZ
    Jackie

    My heart goes out to you. I can understand the conflict that you must feel.

    My circumstances were a little different as it was my Mum who had dementia, but she was truly awful to me when I was pregnant and just after I ahd the kids.

    When the boys were a week old my HV came in and found me in tears after yet another of "those" phone calls from Mum. She chatted to me and made me understand that my children ahd to come first as they are the future. Whilst I had to ensure that Mum was well cared for, I had to ensure first and foremost that my kids were OK.

    I think from your posts that you feel this too...but it really helped relieve my guilt that a health professional said this to me.

    (((((Hugs))))

    I think you have been given some good advice

    Love

    Mameeskye
     
  9. ElaineMaul

    ElaineMaul Registered User

    Jan 29, 2005
    333
    Hi Jackie,
    Just reading your thread. My heart goes out to you.

    My situation is slightly different in that the aggression was my Dad towards my Mum, but I know how hard it is to cope with seeing aggression coming from someone who previously wasn't like that.

    We were making enormous allowances because of how we remember my Dad as being before. However, when Mum became seriously at risk ... when I once went round their house after a frantic phone call from my Mum .... never heard my Mum sound like that on the phone before..... and I wondered what I might find when I got there. Well, something had to be done.

    Even so, the decision we then had to make .... as you are now making ..... is not easy and involves so much heart-ache. However, you can only do your best.

    I am with you in spirit, if it helps at all at such a difficult time. I often feel so sad that my son .... my Dad's grandson .... doesn't have the memories of Dad that I would have liked. :(

    Take care,
    Love Elaine
     
  10. Grannie G

    Grannie G Volunteer Moderator

    Apr 3, 2006
    69,885
    Kent
    Dear Jackie

    However much we love the ones we are carers to, I draw the line at violence to children or adults.
    If medication cannot be found to control the violence then the only alternative is a secure environment with professionals to take over the caring.
    It`s terribly sad for you and your children but you cannot be expected to live in fear of a husband and father.
     
  11. Sam Iam

    Sam Iam Registered User

    Sep 29, 2008
    3,151
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    Jackie,
    my heart goes out to you, god bless you and your children,but you know you are doing the right thing for your family and John, his medication will settle down in time and your children will be able to be of some help to you.
    I truly wish this horrible disease did not exist.
     
  12. sad nell

    sad nell Registered User

    goodevening Jacki, you must consider your childrens safety first, i have experience of violence caused by Alzhiemers/ ftd
    I can tolerate it for myself because that is my choice, but never for my children or grandchildren, My grandchild is very frightened of his grandad now, but untill just recently he handled AD very well, but his grandad has changed towards him, think it is because when he arrives he gets my attention instead of trev and he behaves like a terrible two year old. i will not let my grandson stay overnight anylonger he is 10 so now how you feel. my granson locked himself away because he was frightened of his grandad that broke my heart as i am sure it dose you, but there is no choice if safety is an issue and there are children invloved. i expect your husband prior ad was totally the opposite of todays behaviour, just no explaining it, but do not feel bad you cannot let your child live in fear, and hopefully medication can be sorted to allow him home at a later date. I hate this desease and all the pain it causes t o families love Pam
     
  13. Margarita

    Margarita Registered User

    Feb 17, 2006
    10,824
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    #13 Margarita, Mar 18, 2009
    Last edited: Mar 18, 2009
    Sorry to read that Jakie, even thought it must be heart breaking emotional for you. You have nothing to be guilty about, even if you don't feel like it .

    Wishing your children and you more, loads of moments like that(((Hugs))) xx :)
     
  14. Tender Face

    Tender Face Account Closed

    Mar 14, 2006
    5,379
    NW England
    Dear Jackie, however much we know we are 'doing the right thing' doesn't mean it doesn't tear you apart.

    I just recapped on some of your previous posts and in one you mention what John would want for the children. Perhaps one of the most important things you can do for him now - and something that might help you to think of in this awful situation - is to consider that you are doing whatever you have to now, not only for your children but indeed for him?

    I agree with Vonny about Children's SS. No harm in making contact - and they will be certain to 'step in' if the need arises. You might also find they offer (or can refer) you or the children to appropriate support.

    My heart just goes out to you all - there really are no words....

    Love, Karen, x
     
  15. nellbelles

    nellbelles Volunteer Host

    Nov 6, 2008
    8,466
    leicester
    Jackie
    It broke my heart when my husband was aggressive to his great grandsons, (twins) all caused because he was not centre stage.

    Now they are 17, 6ft 3" when he was aggressive with me (because of being side lined) I had to prevent one of them from hitting him..They love him to bits..

    So you have some hard decisions to make, but your kids must come first..
    But you may find that explaining what is happening truthfully may help all of you.
    Sunshine.. love and hugs
    Helen
     
  16. kazza73

    kazza73 Registered User

    Feb 11, 2009
    878
    Perthshire Scotland
    (((Jackie))))

    Sounds like things have been pretty rough. You have got to put yourself and the kids first though- the 'old' John would want you do to what is best for the kids and would hate to think that things had come to this.

    Sending you lots of love and some 'fluffy' hugs

    Karen xxx
     
  17. jackie1

    jackie1 Registered User

    Jun 6, 2007
    238
    Cheshire
    It gets worse!!

    Things have gone from bad to worse. After another violent outburst I took that awful decision that John has to go into full-time care.

    Foolishly I thought that was the worst thing that was going to happen. But last night the Respite Home rang to say that John had hit a woman client and then was lashing out at everyone. They had no choice but to call the police and it looked like he was going to be sectioned.

    Luckily he calmed down and they were able to put him to bed. There will be a police report under the Vulnerable Adults Act (not sure what that means) and I am waiting for a call to tell me where we go from here. The Respite Home can't keep him there as it just isn't suitable and I have no idea where he will now go.

    Jackie
     
  18. Amber 5

    Amber 5 Registered User

    Jan 20, 2009
    890
    Berkshire
    Hi Jackie,
    So sorry to hear this. I'm afraid I don't have any experience of your situation, so can't add anything other than my support and best wishes.

    It sounds like the medication will need to be looked at in order to help John become calmer and a suitable care home or EMI unit. Easy for me to say - I can only imagine what you are going through right now.

    Lots of love
    Gill x
     
  19. Grannie G

    Grannie G Volunteer Moderator

    Apr 3, 2006
    69,885
    Kent
    I`m so sorry Jackie.

    Don`t be too frightened by the word `section`. I used to live in fear of it but really it is only to keep people safe, including one with dementia.

    This illness has such a disastrous effect on some, there is sometimes no alternative.
     
  20. ElaineMaul

    ElaineMaul Registered User

    Jan 29, 2005
    333
    Hi Jackie,
    I empathise entirely as you are where we were with my Dad 9 weeks ago.

    Dad wasn't sectioned but I guess it came close. However, after speaking to Dad's consultant and the SW, Dad was admitted as an emergency case into the Mental Health Unit at the local hospital. This was after telling them that Mum couldn't cope any more; they already knew she was at risk as presumably both you and your chilren must be.

    After saying this to them, they acted very quickly.

    It is not an easy decision to make and we also agonised over it. So my thoughts are with you {{{{{Jackie}}}}}
    Take care,
    Elaine
     

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