Hiya all,
I hadn't been to see mum for a couple of weeks - various reasons -none good enough. Then had a scare this morning when I spoke to dad and he said she wasn't well yesterday - high temperature, eyes closed, not eating. Immediately phoned NH and they said that she had to be sponged down in the night, no better this morning, and the anitbiotics that she was starting last night didn't seem to have appeared.
Anyway spoke to dad again at 12.00 and he had been and mum much brighter.
As I was driving my son to a University Open Day today(this was before 12.00), I said 'Typical, if she dies, I'll forever be guilty that I hadn't bothered to visit for two weeks' - it's not that I don't care, don't love her. Anyway, dashed over tonight for 30 minutes - she's not right, but has eaten today. Her mouth has a more pronounced droop to one side, but that maybe just that she is 'off colour'.
Doesn't it get tiring, trying so hard to give everyone time - and in the end letting them all down in some way?
Oh well, tomorrow is another day. What is it that they write on school reports-"Must try harder!"?
Finished that wallow in self pity - better get on and sort out some food for some hungry mouths as eldest has just said "Are we doing anything for tea then, or what?" - and theydo often help prepare meals, and that makes me feel guilty too!
Love Helen
I hadn't been to see mum for a couple of weeks - various reasons -none good enough. Then had a scare this morning when I spoke to dad and he said she wasn't well yesterday - high temperature, eyes closed, not eating. Immediately phoned NH and they said that she had to be sponged down in the night, no better this morning, and the anitbiotics that she was starting last night didn't seem to have appeared.
Anyway spoke to dad again at 12.00 and he had been and mum much brighter.
As I was driving my son to a University Open Day today(this was before 12.00), I said 'Typical, if she dies, I'll forever be guilty that I hadn't bothered to visit for two weeks' - it's not that I don't care, don't love her. Anyway, dashed over tonight for 30 minutes - she's not right, but has eaten today. Her mouth has a more pronounced droop to one side, but that maybe just that she is 'off colour'.
Doesn't it get tiring, trying so hard to give everyone time - and in the end letting them all down in some way?
Oh well, tomorrow is another day. What is it that they write on school reports-"Must try harder!"?
Finished that wallow in self pity - better get on and sort out some food for some hungry mouths as eldest has just said "Are we doing anything for tea then, or what?" - and theydo often help prepare meals, and that makes me feel guilty too!
Love Helen