My mum's funeral was today. It went as planned. I don't know how to cope with the grief. I'm just struggling to come to terms with it so badly. Not only is she dead but now she's been cremated. There's only ash now. She's properly gone. What do I do? How do I deal with it? I feel so overwhelmed with sadness and loss. I just want my mum. I need my mum. I need her to cuddle me like she used to when I was upset and tell me it was alright. Before the dementia stole her. Only her hugs where the ones that made me feel better. I feel distraught.