Just wanted to say hello. I read your post and know exactly how you feel. My mum is 6 years into her dementia journey and I knew absolutely nothing when she was first diagnosed. Though mum was told of her diagnosis of AZ, she just never accepted it, or ever mentioned it. If it was mentioned, she would fly into a terrible rage and floods of tears so I kept it from her and told lots of white lies. Still do. Its the only way to get her to co-operate at times! I did find that GP's and other health care officials would mention it in front of mum, so be prepared for that. I'm not an only child, but as sole carer and with 3 brothers who do a big fat zero, I may as well be. All I can say is this site is invaluable, as is this forum. We are all in the same boat and here for each other whenever you need advice, or just to sound off. Its a minefield when you first begin and there is no manual written with step by step instructions! All you can do is take one day at a time. One thing I would say is get some care in for mum, even if its just to make her a cup of tea and a sandwich at first, she may not need personal care yet, but that day will come and if you have care in place, she's not only gotten used to seeing someone come in, but it makes it easier to get more help when you will need it. And need it you will. Contact your local Older Persons Mental Health team, and ask them for an assessment. Be prepared to fight for mums rights too, as sometimes the care system lets people down big time. I have had to complain many times to get mum the proper care etc that she deserves over the years, so don't take no for an answer! I wish you and your mum all the best and remember we are here for you xx