So its one year today since my dad passed and I said my last goodbye. I'm struggling to find the right words to explain how I really feel am worrying incase I say the wrong thing. I didn't want the day to go by without mentioning him. I want to remember dad to remember him and the love but I'm not sure I can even think today. It makes me feel bad because surely I should feel something more? I'm just so confused not knowing how to feel I suppose I feel numb? I visited the grave and took flowers just mustered up the energy to go but didn't stay long a quick touch of his plaque and home again. I haven't been sleeping well because I have been thinking of this day maybe I'm just tired? I've just started crying floods of tears maybe this is what I needed at the end of the day.