Hi, a year ago today at 3am my mother died, I awoke at that time last night and it felt right to be awake. Today I am remembering that this time last year I had gone to see my father for the final time (both my parents had AD) and that at 4.30 on the 21st March last year he too passed away, I had been unable to get to see him that day because of exhaustion, I couldn't drive or cycle safely the 10 miles to the care home.
I was unsure how I would feel about today, have spent the last year recovering from the stress and exhaustion and generally trying to create a future for myself having spent the previous 2 years stuck in a mess of worry, panic and emotional devastation. I have started to look forward but however the circumstances of the death grief and loss are traumatic. I will never be the same person again but I will be a far better person.
I have started to remember my parents for being who they were when they were healthy.
Today it's the exquinox, the death of my parents to me will be associated with the end of winter and the coming of spring.
Today is a day of rememberence.
Lots of love to all
Sally xx
I was unsure how I would feel about today, have spent the last year recovering from the stress and exhaustion and generally trying to create a future for myself having spent the previous 2 years stuck in a mess of worry, panic and emotional devastation. I have started to look forward but however the circumstances of the death grief and loss are traumatic. I will never be the same person again but I will be a far better person.
I have started to remember my parents for being who they were when they were healthy.
Today it's the exquinox, the death of my parents to me will be associated with the end of winter and the coming of spring.
Today is a day of rememberence.
Lots of love to all
Sally xx