Hi,
I've not posted for a while. My mum is now 58 and living in a care home with AD in the late stages. I took some time off work earlier this year as I was struggling to cope with everything....mum's decline, the decision to move her to a care home, settling her, recognising mum's deterioration, still being a mum, wife, daughter to mum crumbling dad. I am back at work now but struggling with everything to be honest. I am on betablockers to stop my panics. I just seem to have problems articulating things, taking things in, remembering conversations and then I get all panicky and anxious. I feel like I have aged 10 years over the past few months and have gone from a very capable independent professional...someone that everyone relies on to someone that doesnt know which way is up.
I honestly don't know if i am capable of my job anymore or the 80 mile round trip commute.
I cant really speak to anyone close to me about it because they all just tell me not to be silly and thats not particularly helpful. I feel like a complete waste of space and have even considered the genetic testing that was in the press. I honestly feel like the signs mum had in the beginning (about 10 years ago) are showing in me.
Please know I am not being over dramatic and I absilutely understand AD and the symptoms - I have lived and breathed them with mum for a long long time now.
Any comments would be appreciated. I'm not sure what to do.
I've not posted for a while. My mum is now 58 and living in a care home with AD in the late stages. I took some time off work earlier this year as I was struggling to cope with everything....mum's decline, the decision to move her to a care home, settling her, recognising mum's deterioration, still being a mum, wife, daughter to mum crumbling dad. I am back at work now but struggling with everything to be honest. I am on betablockers to stop my panics. I just seem to have problems articulating things, taking things in, remembering conversations and then I get all panicky and anxious. I feel like I have aged 10 years over the past few months and have gone from a very capable independent professional...someone that everyone relies on to someone that doesnt know which way is up.
I honestly don't know if i am capable of my job anymore or the 80 mile round trip commute.
I cant really speak to anyone close to me about it because they all just tell me not to be silly and thats not particularly helpful. I feel like a complete waste of space and have even considered the genetic testing that was in the press. I honestly feel like the signs mum had in the beginning (about 10 years ago) are showing in me.
Please know I am not being over dramatic and I absilutely understand AD and the symptoms - I have lived and breathed them with mum for a long long time now.
Any comments would be appreciated. I'm not sure what to do.