As some of you know, I pop on here from time to time. Mostly, I just try to get on with this as best I can. My Dad hasn't reached the 'trigger' points I had set where I would put him in a home (incontinent, violent, getting lost)... but, he is driving me totally round the twist I hope I don't offend anyone - but, I am coming to the point where I find it hard to hold my temper and am increasing finding myself shouting with frustration. The sphere he operates in is shrinking. He seems to have now lost the ability to make tea without flooding the work top with water (we got one of those instant hot water machines so he didn't have to use a kettle anymore - he's been fine with it until now and he keeps pressing and pressing and pressing the button and overflowing the cups). I have 2 kids (17 and 11) and Dad has lived with us 8 years. The last 3.5 years we have coped alone since losing my Mum. I am scared I am going to get to the point where I hate him (well - not him.. but this illness). I feel I have hands around my throat slowly strangling me. Moving him to a home is a devastating decision for me to make, but I am not sure how much longer I can do this before I start resenting him. Please tell me I'm not alone with these feelings? I have a demanding career and travel every week for my job - I am actually glad to be away from home for a night a week. I feel such a ***** and a failure for feeling like this but I really am getting to the point where sometimes I don't even want to engage in a conversation with Dad because I find it so stressful.