This is my first post, and I'm not really sure where to begin. My Dad was officially diagnosed with Alzheimer's in February. At the time I was living in Australia but have moved back to the UK to try and be there for Dad as much as possible. I think I completely underestimated the enormity of how hard this would be. My Mum died when I was child, so my Dad raised the 4 of us and never re-married. He lives with my 2 older sisters but they both have different special needs. My brother lives over 5 hours away with his family. I have a husband and a young son. We moved back in June (but I'm not local) and since then I have been helping as much as I can, taking Dad for his appointments, arranging a carer to come in, trying to get him into a day centre, bathing him, cleaning his house, the list goes on. I'm not coping with the changes in Dad. He is at a point where he is restless in the house and says we are holding him prisoner. He often doesn't recognise it is his house even thou he has lived there for more than 50 years. There is also someone who did the garden once and now keeps coming back and asking for money. I am terrified he might hurt Dad. Most days he is on his own, one sister works and the other goes to a day centre for her own needs. My son is feeling neglected, he miss Australia, his friends, his life and tells me how I have ruined his life and he wants to go home. He starts a new school next week and he doesn't want to, wants to back to his old school in Aus, it's so hard. I am clearly not being a great parent as I am torn between the needs of my Dad and my own family. We have turned our life upside down to be here for Dad as I couldn't not support him at this time, but I am feeling resentful that my brother's life is completely unchanged and unaffected by everything that's happening, & how he is happy to leave everything to me. My sisters now call me at the drop of a hat if Dad is having a confused moment and I just want to cry. My husband is trying to be supportive, but he didn't want to move back from Australia so that kind of hangs in the air between us at times. I don't actually know what I need or what I was writing for, I think I just needed to tell someone that I'm not coping, I feel caught in the middle and I just want to cry. Thanks for listening if you got this far.