Hi I hope you all had a good Christmas break. I am still on respite as my sister decided to stay for two weeks? I am staying with a friend but am starting to dread going back to mum. My sister and brother always cause some trouble when I'm. Away and manipulate and try and control mum. Also bad mouth me and try and turn her against me. I've just been very depressed this Xmas as coming into another year now and wondering how much more I can take. I'm caring for mum nine years now and feel like my life is going nowhere. This Xmas I got rid of two so called friends as they were not there for me but I'm not that bothered either you are a good friend or not. My whole life revolves around mum and I have no life. The biggest problem is that I hate this small town and would not be here if it wasn't for mum. I'm just exhausted with family not supporting me and having no life here. Even if mum was to go into a home I still could not leave here. Who would visit her she only has me here and a useless son? I feel like something has to give this year or ill crack up. Mum is not getting better but her memory is still fairly OK? I don't want her to die but I'm feeling so sad and depressed about my life and what will happen to me when this is all over. There is no contact with family members we don't talk to each other and they are more worried about their inheritance than mums care. Sorry to rant but I don't know how much longer I can live like this. My counsellor was ill today so I couldn't offload on her today. Just a horrible way to be feeling and another new year of what?