Hi everyone, I have come to this blog as I am just having tests for memory issues and some behavioural problems. I am worried as I am in full time employment and the bread winner. There is no one else I can talk too as my friends seem to think I'm just stressed or depressed neither of which I am other than the everyday stresses that is. They don't seem to realise how frightening it is when you set off to do something, forget what you were going to do,then do something different which I thought was right then only later realise you didn't do the right thing when another person asks you for the first task - gosh does that make sense! I wasn't aware I had an issue other than I knew it took me a long time to get out of the house and I am always late until my hubby lost the rag with me in the summer and the problem was bigger than just misplacing my car keys! I am a dizzy distracted person so it was easy to blame things on my general forgetfullness. How ever my performance at work is going down and I just couldn't figure out why, basically going around in circles but didn't realise I wasn't getting anywhere. I'm not really aware of stuff I do or rather don't do but I do know that something isn't right then feel frustrated and angry because idon't know whats wrong until my daughter or hubby asks if teas nearly ready then I realise too late that I was cooking dinner and fed the cat instead. It's also really embarassing to say the least. You can only laugh so much, oh and I've got a very fat cat. I have a horse (very lucky) I can ride and manage everything but can't tie her up because I have forgotten the knot, at first I just made a bad job, laughed it off but didn't realise what the issue was until someone nearly got hurt when my horse panicked and the rope got stuck, my friend shouted at me and I burst into tears as I realised I don't know how to tie the knot, how could I be so stupid. Anyway once I calmed down and we had a chat in private she realised I was completly unable to tie the knot she can show me then I instantly forget, she thought I was joking as I seem completely normal in every other way but each time she showed me it was like a new skill got it, walked away she'd call me back and no hope of recalling that bloody knot. We have since bought me elastic break away ties so no more knots but so embarassing especially when I can still do everything else, apart from turn up on time that is!! This is just one of many experiences but so scary and I feel so stupid. I can drive no problem but run out of fuel so often my hubby now checks my gauge for me (we live a long way from a petrol station) I am also scared they won't find any thing which sounds even more insane as I know things are not right but will they just think I'm a nutter?!? To be honest i would love to be told I was depressed cause at least I can then get on with a treatment but I hate too say it I'm a very happy chappy mostly ignorant of the issues. But I feel rather overwhelmed at the moment, can anyone understand this rant!!