My mum has been given a diagnosis of Mild Cognitive Impairment after a series of dementia/memory tests. This means we are not able to access any of the dementia services locally, I understand that there are limited resources and these need to be prioritised so I am not unhappy about that at all. She is still forgetful and unable to cope with anything more than 1 thing at a time, which is what the Psychologist would happen. Physically she is wobbly as well, and is increasingly needing more care. We have lovely careers that go in daily and help. I am the only child and today I am just overwhelmed by the scale of what is ahead of me, knowing she will not get better but not knowing how long she has and how she will deteriorate and knowing that I am pretty much on my own. I know that I am lucky that mum has funds so we are not reliant on the poor overworked social care system. I know I am very lucky in many ways but today, well today is rubbish and I just wondered if anyone could send me a virtual hug with the understanding of all this and maybe being in the same place. This is such a lonely dark place to be whilst trying to retain some sense of normality in my own life and not get buried under this along with the sense of guilt that I should somehow be doing more! Thank you for reading if you have got this far, knowing there are others out there who are in similar boat does help a bit. Sorry if this sounds a bit wailing and self indulgent but I just needed to get it out and say help!!