Thanks so much everyone, i feel so tired today, I didnt sleep enough last night, my brain would not shut off, i went to sleep thinking only of her and as soon as i woke up she was in my mind again. Ive had the funeral director come today , it feels weird this, its all most like its not real, but then that is what its like isnt it. I was in a shop today and i started looking for sweets for my mam , i suppose i will probably do that for a while, its just in my mind to do it, strange i probably will never go to the home again!