Hi, I'm new to this...I found my dad 7 weeks ago dead in bed, totally shocked, my world changed......he was my mum's full time carer. My mum is 69yrs old, she has had alzheimer's for 13 years, she has been bed bound for 2 years, has lost all speech, can't move her limbs, constantly having uti, she is surviving on a few spoons of custard and 400mls of water a day...My dad didn't want my mum in a nursing home, he wanted to look after her in their home, he truly was devoted to her, I'm married have 3 young children, I have heart failure as well as problems with my kidneys. I had to put my mum in care, the guilt is killing me, I had no choice, I hate going there, seeing her lying in a bed in a small room, all the work my dad done to make her comfortable everyday, I've let him down, and her. They have told me she is receiving end of life care, it is very, very hard to watch, I want her to be at peace have no pain, I find I pray to dad, please take her, don't make her suffer any longer ......how can I think that, she's my mum, and I love her, although she doesn't talk, doesn't laugh, doesn't smile, can't eat or drink and is fighting a battle everyday, she is still my mum. I know the end is coming, but I don't think I can take anymore heartache, both my mum and dad taken from me ?