Havent been on talking point for a long time but feel as you lot have all been in the same boat you may be the best to chat to. On 10th April 2019 my mum died from vascular dementia in her lovely care home. I was the only person with her at the time .... I used to be a nurse and thought I would cope with seeing her go as have experienced people dying many times. But it seemed awful and although I know in my heart of hearts she was painfree watching her take her last gasp will never leave me......so many flash backs I am the oldest in my family and have done all the organising for mum , had poa etc for the last 6 years and I dont know if its just hitting me big time but now we have taken her ashes to be with her parents Im just not coping too well. Days are ok as I work and have a family but evenings I find myself unable to read ( which I love) and just watch tv or browse stuff on my phone. Dont think dark evenings now are helping.. My sensible head says Im just grieving but just needed to ask how you all coped???coping tactics?? My husband has been good but his dad also has cancer so he has his own worries... Thanks for reading.