We had thought mum had plateaued out a bit and wasnt getting any worse, but that has begun to change. She went and got into bed on two sepaerate occassions with two other male patients - nothing sexually, just disoreintated, but my Dad is beside him self and slips deeper into depression.
If mum, in her right mind, could see herself she would be humilated, I love her dearly and would miss here everyday but as she worsens I wish she would die! there I have said it and I know I would hate it to really happen (and I dont think i mean it) but the disintergration she is going thru at the moment is so sad and she would hate people thinking "poor Joan' which is what all her visitors think - some are finding it to uncomfortable to see her now, for themselves as well as her. My poor, lovely articulate, strong minded, intelligent, stuborn mother, the person who provided us all with the best home she could, is some sick parody of herself - its not right - its not fair.
I miss her so much. I feel she has gone already in a way. i love you mum.XXXX
If mum, in her right mind, could see herself she would be humilated, I love her dearly and would miss here everyday but as she worsens I wish she would die! there I have said it and I know I would hate it to really happen (and I dont think i mean it) but the disintergration she is going thru at the moment is so sad and she would hate people thinking "poor Joan' which is what all her visitors think - some are finding it to uncomfortable to see her now, for themselves as well as her. My poor, lovely articulate, strong minded, intelligent, stuborn mother, the person who provided us all with the best home she could, is some sick parody of herself - its not right - its not fair.
I miss her so much. I feel she has gone already in a way. i love you mum.XXXX