Hi, haven't been on for ages. My mum has been in care since the middle of April. She looks well, sleeps well and eats well so I have to assume she's content enough. Every time I visit its the same thing - I was pulling her up the road to put her in the home and she fell and broke her neck ( she fell out other last December and broke bones in her neck - this is how she came to be in the home) or I pushed her down the stairs . she tells it to every one. She can't find things bad enough to say about me. Constantly giving me dirty looks and telling me how much she doesn't like me or how much she hates me. Tells me she loves her brother and sister but hates me etc. Most days I can cope but the longer it's going on the harder it is. It's got now I don't want to go and then I feel guilty for feeling like that. I was very attentive to my mum- saw her every day, stayed overnight with her, as did my 2 sons, had her on holiday with us every year etc. I know it's not really her but it's flipping hard. It was hard enough to put her in the home but I thought she would settle. I've tried distracting her, bringing photos, magazines, taking her photo etc but it's the same mantra each time . It's awful.