I just want to say thankyou for all your kind messages. Last night I went through her beautiful dresses and picked one that really represented her energy and light. Pink with lots of sparkle. I have put one of her favorite handbags with her for those who loved her to put their own message. I took them to the funeral directors this morning. Its so hard with christmas coming and I have to try and find the joy for xmas. My Mum was a great lover of animals and loved spring, she would always say how much she hated the dark nights, but would say to me if winter is here can spring be far behaind. For my Mum to be unable to eat, walk or talk.. to be in be 24 hours a day, 7 days a week unable to move, a prisoner in her own body. My Mum had never had a day in bed, she would say.. people die in bed.. how could I keep her in this condition... I know I had to let my Mum go. So i sat all day with her last friday, I held her hand and went through our life together, I took a picture of how she used to look so the nurses would see just how beautiful she was, not what this horrible diease had done to her. I said how much I loved her and that it was alright for her to leave me. When I kissed her good night I knew it would be the last time I felt her warmth again. I just said Goodnight Godbless and left. The next time I kissed her body she was no longer there, just a cold.. I don't know what. Mariax
