Hi I am new to this site and just wanted to introduce myself. I am 24 years old and my sister is 27. Four years ago my mother was diagnosed with early onset alzheimers at the age of 49. My sister and I had been caring for our mother and since the day she was diagnosed she has deteriorated into a person I hardly recognise. About two years ago my mother was also diagnosed with parkinsons. My sister and I have been living a nightmare for the past four years on our own. Being two young women in our twenties, our lives have been consumed by my mothers illness. Six months ago, as my mums condition worsened, we could no longer give her the 24 hour care she needed, and with much resentment, she went to live in a care home in Manchester as it was the only "suitable" home in the whole country which I find shocking!. However we have had numerous problems, and with us living in Essex, Manchester is too far to travel to see my mum whom i love so much. It breaks my heart. On a recent visit to see my mum (this week), My sister and I were shocked at how much my mum has deteriorated. Things she could do six weeks ago, she can no longer. I don't think she even realised we were there. I cannot accept that this is happening to my mum and feel so alone. I feel like my mum died a long time ago and her body has been taken over by these both very cruel illnesses. My mum looks like she is wasting away and I wonder how much time she has left. I cannot believe her rapid deterioration. I have been told that younger people do generally deteriorate much quicker, but I cannot believe the difference in my mum compared to weeks/months ago. I am heartbroken and me and my sister only have each other. My sister and I now feel guilty that maybe she has got worse since going into the care home and blame ourselves. We are at breaking point and I miss my mum so much. I need to know that I am not alone, as I have thought for so long. I just wish I'd had come on this site a long time ago. I guess I just haven't been able to accept it. I am sorry for the long message.