I havent posted for a while things have gone from very bad to alot worse. For those of you who have read my posts before heres a refresher, my 56yr old mum has a rare for of AD which has been described as a cross between motor neurones and MS. She is now permantly in a nursing home, bed ridden, incontinent, not eating, screaming and shouting constantly as she can no longer talk and is permantly on a s/c drip (which we have been told is her life support). We have had a meeting with her drs and they have told us that we have to make a decision - take her off the drip and let her slip into a coma within the week and then peacefully pass away or keep her as she is and let nature take its course. What an impossible decision to make on one hand i dont want her to suffer anymore but on the other hand how can i live with myself knowing that i helped to kill her, i know that is not the way to look at it but how can you look at it any other way when i look into her eyes and see mum staring back at me. I am pulling my hair out, one day i can wake up and think right i am going to agree to removing the drip and then i sit and think about it and bottle out i stuck at crossroads and really dont know which way to go.