I am unable to conduct a conversation with anyone in the real world about my mother and dementia, I end up crying not being able to say what I want and end up disraught and making the people around me uncomfortable. We (my family and I) recently put my mum into care as she was unable to live unaided, my father hasnt coped in is now being treated for depression. Watching my mum desintergrate mentally (and physically) before my eyes is breaking my heart and hers. I never imagined anything could be this bad - I imagined my parents would grow old and pass peacefully - not this, not a world of confusion, medication, homes, carers (strangers looking after my mum. I see no light at the end of the tunnel - just a worsening situation.