My name is Amber and im 18, about two years ago my grandpa who is also my best friend was diagnosed with Alzheimers.
When he was first diagnosed i was scared to even go see him, but when i manged to talk myself into it, he was the same man proud man as always he just had more of a sense on humour, that lasted about 6 months or so and then he got quite voilent towards my grandma, never towards me of in front of me or my mum but my grandma would tell us when we went to see them,and her naighbour would tell us that she could hear yelling from there house.
I Thought that if i ignored it and pushed it out of my mind he wouldn't change one bit but i couldn't of been more wrong!! I go too his as offten as i can, but last summer was when i noticed the change, he has always been active and me and him would always go out and work in his garden together but he just sat indoors and watched tv. Hes got worse now, i thought he remembered me because im his grand daughter but this christmas just gone i found out that was also wrong, I remind him of someone from his life before he got married we think maybe an ex girl-friend or something he really scared me, and now i know that there is nothing left of the man i knew and loved and i really dont know what to do!
Im scared to see him but im also scared to hurt him or let him down, Im really struggling with it, I miss him so much!
I hate myself for feeling this way but part of me wishes he was dead instead of losing all memorys and being an empty shell of my grandpa!! his sister has it too shes 93 and she just lays in bed all day doing nothing and i know he'd hate that life!!
I just need some help on how to handle this situation, I think i'm already grieving for him and it hurts so much i've never hurt this much
When he was first diagnosed i was scared to even go see him, but when i manged to talk myself into it, he was the same man proud man as always he just had more of a sense on humour, that lasted about 6 months or so and then he got quite voilent towards my grandma, never towards me of in front of me or my mum but my grandma would tell us when we went to see them,and her naighbour would tell us that she could hear yelling from there house.
I Thought that if i ignored it and pushed it out of my mind he wouldn't change one bit but i couldn't of been more wrong!! I go too his as offten as i can, but last summer was when i noticed the change, he has always been active and me and him would always go out and work in his garden together but he just sat indoors and watched tv. Hes got worse now, i thought he remembered me because im his grand daughter but this christmas just gone i found out that was also wrong, I remind him of someone from his life before he got married we think maybe an ex girl-friend or something he really scared me, and now i know that there is nothing left of the man i knew and loved and i really dont know what to do!
Im scared to see him but im also scared to hurt him or let him down, Im really struggling with it, I miss him so much!
I hate myself for feeling this way but part of me wishes he was dead instead of losing all memorys and being an empty shell of my grandpa!! his sister has it too shes 93 and she just lays in bed all day doing nothing and i know he'd hate that life!!
I just need some help on how to handle this situation, I think i'm already grieving for him and it hurts so much i've never hurt this much