My Grandma suffers very serious alzheimer's and has a for a long time. I'm finding it really hard to deal with right now, specially when I'm young and am going through my own serious depression. She's in a nursing home in Bancary I think.. She was in one in Ballater (where she lived) but they treated her really badly. I've gotten to a point that I can't ever face visiting her without breaking down. I noticed how bad it was when it was my Grandfather's funeral ( he was the only person I was close to in my whole family) and my Gran kept asking where her husband was, and he was obviously in the coffin in front of her. I cried that whole day and no one ever comforted me. I spent days at school, cluctching onto a picture of him and no one talked to me. I don't know how to deal with this all. My depression is getting worse, and I havent slept and ate properly in a long time. And I ruined my exams because I was too depressed to do anything. My mum is going to kill me.