some of you might remember me posting before... I thought an update was due (more for me than you..I am sure you all understand)... my dad is dying and hours and minutes now fly away too quick..he saw us all this morning and smiled and laughed with us in his own way and that made something that cannot be described by words and it made him see us...seeee us!! and recognise me and later in the afternoon he was cryinghis alzheimers has been on overdrive and 3 and a half years ago he was driving me to my neo natal appointments and now he is in my parents house in a hospital bed ( we did not let him go ) and he is in his final days of life and safe and comfortable and I swear to god that his alzheimers has faded in his last days because he has recognised evryone of us and held on to us in so many ways