My dad was diagnosed 2 years ago with vascular dementia, my amazing mum pushed and pushed for a diagnosis after 30 yrs in the care profession.. My dad is diabetic, had a heart attack, has high blood pressure and arthritis...
I feel so angry... After a life of no smoking, no drinking, playing football and cricket at a high level until his late 40's early 50's and working hard for us as a family forever... Why does he deserve this?
I'm writing this is tears as I'm such a selfish cow... My mum copes so well, her life has turned upside down and at a time when they had planned to enjoy their retirement, she is watching my dad put tea bags in the kettle by mistake and so caring...
Me, I'm feeling angry and upset and all consumed with the fact that my dad, my rock, my 'go to and no matter what it is, he knew what to do' person... Is now the vulnerable one..
When the shop assistant looks at him like he's nuts, whilst he counts out money for his paper and tries to make conversation with her.. I feel like I want to drag her over the counter.... When the dr receptionist raises her voice higher and higher, as opposed to just letting him take his time, I have the same reaction....
The impact of this on my family is all consuming... My mum, struggling with her new role, a career for the one person she never wanted to.. Me, I'm a little girl in a grown up body who never realised how much I'd miss my dad, just being that... My dad...
I feel so angry... After a life of no smoking, no drinking, playing football and cricket at a high level until his late 40's early 50's and working hard for us as a family forever... Why does he deserve this?
I'm writing this is tears as I'm such a selfish cow... My mum copes so well, her life has turned upside down and at a time when they had planned to enjoy their retirement, she is watching my dad put tea bags in the kettle by mistake and so caring...
Me, I'm feeling angry and upset and all consumed with the fact that my dad, my rock, my 'go to and no matter what it is, he knew what to do' person... Is now the vulnerable one..
When the shop assistant looks at him like he's nuts, whilst he counts out money for his paper and tries to make conversation with her.. I feel like I want to drag her over the counter.... When the dr receptionist raises her voice higher and higher, as opposed to just letting him take his time, I have the same reaction....
The impact of this on my family is all consuming... My mum, struggling with her new role, a career for the one person she never wanted to.. Me, I'm a little girl in a grown up body who never realised how much I'd miss my dad, just being that... My dad...