Hi everyone, I'm new to this forum and don't really know what I'm doing. My dad was diagnosed with frontal temporal dementia and MS related dementia two years ago. I had no option but to ensure he went into a nursing home. He was living alone and was a constant worry, I know he is safe and happy now, he settled in very well, believing he has lived there for years. My dad has very poor personal hygiene and refuses any assistance, the home are great and let me know when he is getting bad, and I get him to bathe (he only responds well to me). However, I am really struggling at the moment, I have a young family (2 children aged 2 and 4) and I am 33years old. My dad is 59years old. I have become very reluctant to visit him unless it is needed, I struggle seeing my dad the way he is, but I am his only visitor, he has no friends or family, my brother doesn't visit at all, so I do feel very guilty. But I just can't motivate myself to go see him. I love my dad, very very much, but to see him the way he is very hard and upsetting. I feel all the weight has been on me for so long that when he moved into the home I could relax for the first time in years. I feel I am babbling now. Maybe if someone could come with me and support me it would help. My husband has offered, but due to my dad not recognising him, that upsets me more.