An emergency doctor was called to NH at the weekend, when I got there he explained Mum had a TIA. He said she might have another event within 24 hours which could be fatal but that it was impossible to predict and she could live for weeks. But with hindsight I don't know whether saying "weeks" rather than "weeks or months" was just a figure of speech. I sat quietly with her for a couple of hours while she slept. Went back later to feed her. 2nd visit was lovely, she was really smiley and responsive and trying to chat so I thought "this is the recovery before someone passes" and went home fully expecting a call during the night - and very ready for her to go quickly feeling that the memories of that 2nd visit would be a comfort. No call out, when I went to feed her next day she was back to normal (an odd minute or two of contact but a lot of vacant staring, needing reminders to swallow food etc). I visit most days to hand-feed her evening meal and clean her teeth when possible. My dilemma is that I have a short holiday booked for July with my long term partner (who I don't live with). Although he stayed with me the night I expected her to "go" and was very supportive he is still acting as if we are going away. I was going to explain to him next time I see him face to face that I don't feel OK about going but he phoned me today and told me he's arranged a lift to the airport for us and I chickened out of saying anything. Last time we went away Mum got really ill, and I have been very aware that she could die at any time. Sorry it's such an essay, I know I have to make my own mind up about what to do. Just wanted to "talk" to someone who understands these dilemmas. Am so hoping that Mum does not have a long and horrible end - really don't think I could bear it.