My darling wonderful brave Mum passed away on 25th Nov, I laid her to rest last Monday. I held her hands in mine for her last hours and she just slipped quietly away. Nothing could have prepared me for how I feel - the loss, the emptiness, the sadder- than-sadness. Feels like a blow from a drop hammer.
At almost 94 she had, as she always put it, "a good innings". But the last years of her life were so blighted by this terrible, vile disease.....
I know it will get easier to handle, and I am starting to get on with all the usual stuff - sort of. It's all just knocked me for six - harder than I could ever have expected it would. And I'm known as "one of life's copers". It's just that now, nothing seems to be the same somehow.
Well, I'm just so blessed that I was able to be with Mum almost full time during her last couple of weeks, even though she had declined into sleeping most of the time. I also had the pleasure of really getting to know my Mum over the last 5 years while I've been her main carer - I knew her better then than during the previous 55 years. Those later years in close contact enabled us both to lay to rest all the antagonism that had dogged our previous years - two opinionated characters became mother and daughter the way we never could be before.
Just want to thank you all out there, those who replied with support and suggestions to my previous posts asking for help, and those whose own posts have given me information and inspiration. xx
At almost 94 she had, as she always put it, "a good innings". But the last years of her life were so blighted by this terrible, vile disease.....
I know it will get easier to handle, and I am starting to get on with all the usual stuff - sort of. It's all just knocked me for six - harder than I could ever have expected it would. And I'm known as "one of life's copers". It's just that now, nothing seems to be the same somehow.
Well, I'm just so blessed that I was able to be with Mum almost full time during her last couple of weeks, even though she had declined into sleeping most of the time. I also had the pleasure of really getting to know my Mum over the last 5 years while I've been her main carer - I knew her better then than during the previous 55 years. Those later years in close contact enabled us both to lay to rest all the antagonism that had dogged our previous years - two opinionated characters became mother and daughter the way we never could be before.
Just want to thank you all out there, those who replied with support and suggestions to my previous posts asking for help, and those whose own posts have given me information and inspiration. xx