Mum has been diagnosed since 2012 and I have seen a substantial deterioration over the last few months.
She lives on her own in a flat in a retirement community, but with no real support included except an emergency call system.
Mum is very socially isolated and complains that she is bored, but then has extreme periods of confusion when she gets so distressed she shakes and is very disorientated.
I am her main carer, as she has no other family nearby. I have recently arranged "home help" type carers to go in twice a day (once at lunchtime and once before bed). The quality of the carers that go in vary enormously, some great some dreadful missing basics like unplugging electrical items at bedtime (E.g the electric blanket, even though it is on a list of things to do)
The retirement centre offer a low level of activities such as coffee morning and the occasional talks and entertainment. So although she complains of being bored and some days is very depressed flinging herself on the bed or slumping and saying she wants to be dead, she refuses to take part in even these low level activities.
I visit every day to make her evening meal, but she still complains there is noting to do.
She had a slight infection over Christmas which made her have hallucinations which meant I was at the house about 5 times a day for hours at a time and until 3am in the morning trying to calm her down and trying to get her to sleep. She suffers from anxiety and has literally bitten off all her fingernails, she is down to raw flesh now.
We had a visit from a doctor from the mental health team yesterday, who has prescribed an anti-depressant. When I talked to him about Mum going into a home (that she confirmed she would like to the doctor) he said that because her "level of care was good" and she hasn't wandered or injured herself he said I should keep her in her own home.
This whole thing is substantially affecting my life and my family. I am constantly tired and probably depressed myself. It is taking more and more time out of my day. I am self-employed but am worried that I am going to start losing clients as I am struggling to provide them with a good level of service too. The worst day recently was 25 telephone calls from my Mum. We can't have days away or a trip as I feel like I need to be within a few miles to react to Mum's calls for help. Can't even think about a holiday or a weekend away. Christmas and New year was ruined for us this year. Got no rest, no break and it just seems relentless.
When any professionals speak to Mum, she has a "polite mode" and she comes across as well, happy with no problems and the professionals seem to listen to her more.
So torn as to what to do. I feel I cannot cope anymore like this. I have varied success with the carers, Mum wants to go in a home so she has company and things to do but the doctor says she should stay in her home.
I do feel like my opinion is the one that matter least to anyone.
She lives on her own in a flat in a retirement community, but with no real support included except an emergency call system.
Mum is very socially isolated and complains that she is bored, but then has extreme periods of confusion when she gets so distressed she shakes and is very disorientated.
I am her main carer, as she has no other family nearby. I have recently arranged "home help" type carers to go in twice a day (once at lunchtime and once before bed). The quality of the carers that go in vary enormously, some great some dreadful missing basics like unplugging electrical items at bedtime (E.g the electric blanket, even though it is on a list of things to do)
The retirement centre offer a low level of activities such as coffee morning and the occasional talks and entertainment. So although she complains of being bored and some days is very depressed flinging herself on the bed or slumping and saying she wants to be dead, she refuses to take part in even these low level activities.
I visit every day to make her evening meal, but she still complains there is noting to do.
She had a slight infection over Christmas which made her have hallucinations which meant I was at the house about 5 times a day for hours at a time and until 3am in the morning trying to calm her down and trying to get her to sleep. She suffers from anxiety and has literally bitten off all her fingernails, she is down to raw flesh now.
We had a visit from a doctor from the mental health team yesterday, who has prescribed an anti-depressant. When I talked to him about Mum going into a home (that she confirmed she would like to the doctor) he said that because her "level of care was good" and she hasn't wandered or injured herself he said I should keep her in her own home.
This whole thing is substantially affecting my life and my family. I am constantly tired and probably depressed myself. It is taking more and more time out of my day. I am self-employed but am worried that I am going to start losing clients as I am struggling to provide them with a good level of service too. The worst day recently was 25 telephone calls from my Mum. We can't have days away or a trip as I feel like I need to be within a few miles to react to Mum's calls for help. Can't even think about a holiday or a weekend away. Christmas and New year was ruined for us this year. Got no rest, no break and it just seems relentless.
When any professionals speak to Mum, she has a "polite mode" and she comes across as well, happy with no problems and the professionals seem to listen to her more.
So torn as to what to do. I feel I cannot cope anymore like this. I have varied success with the carers, Mum wants to go in a home so she has company and things to do but the doctor says she should stay in her home.
I do feel like my opinion is the one that matter least to anyone.